Ang totoo, it wouldn't be a problem, kung 'di ko naman siya naiisip. I'm just pagod of falling and failing. So last night, I tried to write a song about what I had the whole day, but it wasn't worth it because I was laos (I lost my voice from all the screaming for my team mates). How I wish I could create a piece like that of Mojofly's Tumatakbo. Kaya rinereserba ko pa yung mga "kagagahan" ko ngayon para naman may maisulat akong lyrics sa kantang gagawin ko. Mas maganda kasi yung mga kantang nagagawa ko kapag "BIGO" ako e. Yes! Really true! I'm used to making songs when I'm mad/sad/frustrated/disturbed or whatever that puts a frown on my smiling face. With every dilemma that I live through, I wouldn't believe that the songs that I can make are made up of fake lyrics nor forged. All those are true and from the heart...and wherever the problem is, that's where my heart sings.It's not too hard to decode the drop signs. I got it all figured out...most especially when we're ALL together.
Just like the way he held our hands (my pal and I). After all our matches, my friend and I lost our own matches. But he was KSP enough to congratulate us with our loss. But it was ok though. When he held my hand (first!), he said "congrats" to me and I felt something different from the way he gripped my hand. I dunnow..."I'm just not sanay siguro, when a guy holds my hand-I'm not used to the holding-hands thing. Naiilang ako." But I let go of his hand at once and then after that yung kamay naman nung friend ko yung hinawakan niya (Yung sinasabi ko na type niya), but my friend wants to let go of her hand already, pinigilan pa niya.
Another was yung pangungulet niya. He's just fond of teasing me and my gal pal. He calls us names too. Sakin ung name ng baril dun sa Counter-Strike, tapos yung sa friend ko naman e yung parang panghahanga. Tinatawag niya ako sa name ng baril dahil palagi akong napupuno ng pasa. Most especailly right after our sparing practice. I plead guilty! I do get offended sometimes, but I really don't care, as long as pinapansin niya ako, and that explains that I exist. About his pangungulit, we (my friend and I) noticed that the asaran with my friend would last longer than his asaran with me. You know the truth is my friend and I are not sanay undergoing these love contact with the opposite sex. We do have crushes but it doesn't envolve the both of us in the scene. Kaya 'di namin alam kung anong gagawin. I even think she likes him too. But it's okay, let's face the mundane truth that she might, although she denies it. (oops she might get mad if she reads this, but believe me. She won't). Telling her that I like the guy would be, "total-murder-suicide".
Lastly, I saw him coaching in my friend's game. He was from our TKD sister team (Both our teams have the same co-founders that's why). Kinampihan niya yung friend ko sa championship game niya, against sa team mate niya na kalaban nung friend ko. He even gave important tactics to my friend who never listens to him. He was the coach 'di ba? So siya din yung umupo dun sa upuan ng mag-cocoach. Pretty obvious talaga.